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| I haven't been writing Xanga for a really long time. Been at HKU for a couple of months, life has been okay, nothing much. Met a couple of good friends with common interest. I just don't know why I am feeling so unwell right now. I mean the workload is not that much compare to the states, where I have a test every single week for every different subject. Maybe is because of the weather, the pressure of trying to get nice grades on my transcript, which I hardly doubt it would be nice any more, babysitting, trying to find a part-time job and keeping up with the one I have, trying to do housework (okay I don't really do it, but pressured to do it), trying to find an internship and part-time job that I can get credits and money and do what I like. Maybe I am just realli stressed out, especially trying to finish two 2000 words paper at the same time can drive a person to insanity.
There are people who say that I am just under too much stress and some just say that I am just trying to slack off. I don't know whichever one I am. But I do know that I am not feeling so well right now and I need to get better not matter what it is. I am just human I guess, I just have to take things one step at a time.
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| God, for all these years, I have finally come to a true understanding that I am a loner and I love ever second of it. I am not saying I love to be alone. I just don't want to be bothered. I mean seriously, after all the years in university, I discover how one can be so nonchalant about holidays, especially Christmas and New Years, but I loved it when I was a child. I admit, I am selfish, cold blooded person who has no sort of feelings for others and I am happy about that because it means that I don't feel that lonely as I have always been accustomed to. I don't think I ever want to come home for Christmas ever again nor for New Years or during the summer but I would come back to Hong Kong and stay some where else. I realize that I really really hate family gathers although I thought that I would have enjoyed after waiting for all these years. I just don't know why I became such a bitch about the Christmas Party, perhaps it is because seeing all the hypocrite stuff going on on the last dinner, I realized that I needed peace and quiet as I have yarned for since i came back from NY for the last six days? I mean please, unlike the other summer holidays, I didn't even get a chance to sleep or get a chance to socialize.
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| 一定不能和沒有腦子的人工作, 因為他們只會是你的負累.
這麼大個人做事還是不用大腦, 沒有見識沒關係但不要硬應有.
浪費人家的時間, 花時間說了一大堆沒腦的話, 氣死我啦!!!
已經跟你說了,我要趕飛機, 本來20分鐘能完的meeting 變成了70分鐘.
而只有10分鐘的時間你才跟我談, 浪費了我一個小時的時間.
如果不是被人家臨時叫去, 我才不會去見你.
我怎會知道我要去見你? 是你自己學校寫的policy, 要人家去見妳, 真好笑, 還反過來問我, 我怎會知道?
拜託, 妳浪費了10分鐘就是問我為什麼要來找你.... 妳真的應該check 一下你們department 的 policy!!!
還把人家的offering letter 畫得花li 碌! 妳叫我怎樣寄給人做 acceptance reply??? 簡直是沒腦的行為，也沒有禮貌, 我 advisor 都是我給的copy 才會寫字！妳憑什麼在我的 reply slip 弄成這個樣子嗎？妳最後才拿去影印，有沒有搞錯，現在搞左咁多事，妳都是不想我走吧？簡直是廢話的 hypocrite! 妳根本不是以學生為本, 妳是覺得收少了一個學期的學費才到處o左難我. 我已經不会像上一年那樣被你嚇到, 還害到自己失去了一個機會. 我現在才不會那麼笨! 我再也不會屈服在你們所謂為的XX之下. 妳问我為什麼不在studyabroad take 學校有的course, 我明白你的意思, 但是... 妳學校根本沒有sufficient courses...你叫人家怎樣take... plus, 如果學校有provide it every freaken semester, there would be no need to study abroad. 當我聽到妳問我這個問題的時候, 我覺得很無奈, 但我也很禮貌的回答你, 怕生得罪你後會公報私仇, 不讓我transfer de credit 回去, 但我現在已經括了出去, 我最多就走別的路.
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| 唉, 上個禮拜弄傷了腳, 今天又把右手燙傷....幸好手指還能打字, 但痛到麻死我了... 沒有燙傷膏, 用body shop 的 handcream, 竟然也有點用.... 哈哈...
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| 當你病得很辛苦時候, 妳會很想有人在你身邊
不管他知否在呵護你, 守護你已經是非常足夠
當你沒有的時候, 也沒辦法, 只能一個人硬撐
上體育課弄傷了腳, 做TA要呵以奉成, 還有X多樣的東西煩著
我知道我不應該埋怨, 因為我已經比很多人幸福
但我現在管不了這麼多,
我心裡很救業覺得很難受, 可能舒不舒服吧
人的心情也差一點.
很感謝Anna, 妳從NYC打電話給我, 安慰我. 我好感動! 連我阿媽也不會這樣做....
妳說得對, 從the beginning of the semester, fr. 房租, study abroad 和現在TA的那些東西都把我stressed out 了, 根本我是沒有透氣的空間.
一波未停,一波又起
我好想大病一場, 再好起來
可是, 我付不起這樣的代價.
我連病也會收到warning letter. 我簡直是無話可說.
我不知道病的意思對他們來說是不是攤在醫院的病床才算. 可是, 我也睡不起醫院的床.
唉... 只能順其自然, 但我還是想哭....但我哭不出來...
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